This week aku pergi
kelas dengan sangat blur dan penuh teka-teki.
I have lost my
track,
I am no more in the right pace,
trying hardly to catch up.
I don’t have the idea what the lecturers are
lecturing.
I don’t know what’s on earth my friends are discussing
about.
I don’t have the guidance where to refer
to.
I don’t have the knowledge on what is
important and what is not.
Aku memang blur tahap panda!
I never knew that being in class would be so
exhausting,
padahal you bukan buat apa pun,
just sit still and look at the lecturer as if
you dengar sepatah-sepatah apa dia cakap.
my mind cuba seboleh-bolehnya untuk rakam
whatever words yang sempat singgah kat telinga,
though I didn’t get them as a whole.
memang tension being
in this state of myself,
the state where I feel so left behind!
and it is now mid term
season!
starting this week we are preparing ourselves
for tests in the next couple of weeks.
sekarang Aku tengah menggelabah ni,
Aku takut gila,
because I am now lost!
